Just another way to wear this hipster poncho that I got at H&M. I'm absolutely loving it!
Monday, September 28, 2015
There are times when life throws unexpected obstacles in our way. Everything would be going great, things would be working out and then, boom! And things start falling apart. In such moments, before you put the blame on someone, it is important to step back and think "What did I do wrong?" Sometimes, you will realize that you did not do as good a job as you could; but sometimes, you will know that you did everything you could and the only mistake you made was biting off more than you can chew and not giving your own self enough credit.
I just ran into a situation that made me realize just how much certain people take advantage of me. The nice, kind, responsible person that I am, I easily fall for the simple words of flattery and always think that no matter what happens it is always my fault. I take on more and more until I get so overwhelmed that this stress starts to affect every aspect of my life. Well, enough is enough. It is finally time to think about myself, it is finally time to stop being so naive. I can try and finish everyone's work, I can try to please everyone, but at the end of the day, there will still be more work to do and more people to please. And worst of all, I will end up betraying my own self in favor of other people who will still not be satisfied. It's time to change this self-destructive behavior, it's time to finally understand my self-worth and not be afraid to expose it. It's definitely time to finally grow up.
One of the ways of making Mondays at least a little bit better (because who likes Mondays? They are always the toughest) is going to work dressed nicely. There is definitely something about looking put together that adds confidence and makes the day better.
Wednesday, September 23, 2015
Sunday, September 20, 2015
Isn’t it funny how sometimes things we try to run away from come back to us and we view them from a completely opposite perspective? I remember when I came to this country, I was very focus on making sure I assimilate to this new culture as quickly as possible. I really wanted to make my accent go away so no one would know that I’m foreign. I wanted to be a real American. Fast forward nine years, and my perspective shifted entirely. More and more I want to stay true to my roots.
A great advantage I have is that my roommate encourages me to ‘keep the Russian in me’ and to explore my home culture in this country. We made a goal – to visit as many Russian restaurants in New York as we can. So far, every restaurant we have been to presented us with an amazing experience, fueled by delicious food, beautiful décor and great service.
It all started from sometime in September when we spent a whole day on Brighton Beach. I was afraid to go to that area as I remembered the unfortunate experience from the first time I went there with my parents. Everything seemed so dirty and cheap, that I decided to never step my foot there again. However, a few year later, I decided to take a risk and revisit the area. This time around, my experience was a complete polar opposite. I enjoyed every second of being in a place with so many people of my own culture. However, it was a bittersweet experience as it definitely made me miss my home and family back in Russia. But at least now I know that wherever I get homesick, I have a place not far from where I live that has at least a slight resemblance of what things used to be like.
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Today, my roommate and I decided to go to Williamsburg to look for some vinyl records for our new record player. Since Williamsburg is known for its unique hipster style, I decided to look the part. This outfit is not something I would typically wear; however, I must say I am loving this style. It's carefree but put-together, a little strange but fun and interesting - definitely something I would like to channel more.
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
Well, now that it's the middle of September, I am finally realizing that summer is pretty much over and I still have not worn a number of the outfits I put together in the beginning of the summer. Therefore, now is the time, the last chance, to take them all out before it gets too cold to wear skirts and dresses.
Monday, September 14, 2015
Those of you who know me, also know about my health-related issues and struggles over the past few years. From one thing to another, it seems like these issues never end. I get better and then I get worse, unable to keep the healthy state of my body. Two weeks ago, I made a decision to go back on the SCD diet that helped me initially (a couple of years ago). I was determined to start it for good now as 'I have a known issue and this is something that is supposed to help me'. Two weeks later, I am not feeling any better, if not feeling worse. As I started talking to my roommate about this vicious cycle, she brought up a very good point: "What about that time last year when you came back from Russia? You said you were feeling great not falling any dietary restriction?" When she said that, at first I didn't even know what she was referring too. And then it hit me. I completely forgot about the time when I went to Russia last October and came back feeling absolutely amazing. The solution? Surprisingly enough, I let myself indulge into anything I wanted. I did not count calories, I did not pay attention to what's allowed and what's not, i did not feel guilty after eating certain foods; I just enjoyed my food, truly enjoyed it to the fullest. As I started thinking about it, it all started making sense to me. While I do not deny the fact that I do have heath issues, I keep disregarding the most important fact - that above all, the issue lies in my head. The more restrictions (even seemingly healthy ones) I apply, the worse I start feeling. And on the contrary, the more I'm able to let go, the better I start feeling. So starting today, I am going to try something new. I am going to try and not put any restrictions on my diet. My focus is on enjoying my food by approaching food with a healthy mind. I am letting go of all 'rules' and 'healthy tips' and focusing on listening to my own body. I will give this a try again and see how I feel by the end of the week. They say it is all about that mind-body connection, and I am willing to give this a try.
But for now, my summery outfit:
Sunday, September 13, 2015
The best weekends in New York happen when you have absolutely nothing planned in advance. Somehow, it is on those weekends, that you end up having the most fun. This Sunday, my roommate and I decided to go to the city and spend a day exploring. First up, the plan was to get breakfast somewhere in Midtown. We took the train into the city and decided to get off in Time Square to find something nice and not too pricey. The first stop was Bryant Park, one of my favorite places in New York. This small park, located between Fifth and Sixth Avenues and between 40th and 42nd Streets, is one of the most beautiful places in the city. Summer movies, yoga, Christmas shops and ice-skating rink - there is always something going on.
Having walked through the park, we decided to get breakfast at Le Pain Quotidien located right on the edge on the park.
Breakfast was followed by a walk up Fifth Avenue towards Central Park. On the way, we stopped by a few stores, and of course I could not resist buying a few new clothing items.
After a long walk and intense shopping process, we were hungry for more food. Destination - Cafe Lalo, one of my favorites on Upper West Side.
Exhausted but happy, we took the course home right after lunch. I will always love these days, when without prior planing you end up having the best time.