Saturday, October 15, 2016


After a lot, a lot of going back and forth in respect to what color my hair should be, I decided to stop on blonde. For now anyway. 

For the past few days I have been thinking and overthinking "What am I - a blonde or a brunette?", "What color suits my personality better?", etc. I tried going through my old pictures, trying to figure out what looks best; I tried remembering what I feel more comfortable with, what makes me more confident. Surprisingly enough I realized that I can work with either one. They are so different, and they turn me into two different people on the outside; but on the inside, I am the same regardless of my hair color. 

I am not a blonde for life and I am not a brunette for life. I am free in changing my appearance and in trying out different styles, and my decisions change based on how I feel during a specific phase of my life. I hate putting labels on people, and I do not want to put labels on myself. I do not want to constrict myself in who I am. I am versatile. I like changes. Some things I think through thoroughly, some things I do impulsively. I may be a little crazy because my mind is always racing faster than the speed of light, but it is me, and I accept it for what it is.

Rocking my inner Beyonce with this 'flawless' bracelet =)

Thursday, October 13, 2016

What Is My Passion?

For the longest time I have been trying to find who I am. I have been searching for my true passions, looking for the things that make me happy, figuring out what I want out of my life. And what I have realized is that by overanalyzing pretty much everything that occurs in my life, I end up focusing on all the wrong things. I end up focusing on the things I don't have or don't want instead of being grateful for what I have; I end up evaluating my past or planning my future instead of living in the present; I end up beating myself up for all the 'mistakes' I make instead of rewarding myself for my little daily victories.

After an immense amount of research on the topic, I finally realized that all this self-discovery, which eventually turns into self-loathing, must end now. Now is the time to focus on what I love, what I am grateful for and what simply makes me laugh. Now is the time to manifest my dreams and passions into reality.

There are so many things I love: writing, New York City, fashion, art, music, life. And how sad is it that with all this self-analysis I forget just how important those things are to me. Therefore, today I decided to share more positive thoughts, creating posts where I am actually grateful for what's going on in my life. Some of it may be silly, some of it may be extremely serious, but regardless of its significance and meaning, this will be my way of getting back of track with appreciating my life in its present moment and documenting those treasured moments.

I would like to finally focus on cleansing and building my confidence. By cleansing I mean getting rid of things that are holding me back. That applies to various aspects of my life, such as my clothes and shoes, things in my room, my blogs (I used to have quite a few, and now I closed some of them), my insecurities, my indecisiveness, etc. 

I am learning to make decisions and stick to them, and be confident in my choices. It will not be an easy journey, but I think I finally found my passion – writing about the things I love, documenting the good moments (not only my depressing thoughts), and working on creating love within me and all around me.

Friday, October 7, 2016


Fridays are meant to be relaxing. Therefore, my outfit here is a plain black shirt with jeans. Honestly, I mostly did this post to show off my hair. It's that time again - the time when I start freaking out about whether I should stay blonde or go back to dark. It also never helps when anyone I ask what suits me better responds "You can totally pull off both, they both look great on you!" I guess I can consider myself lucky for that, but at the same time it makes things so much more difficult because I can never find that "my color", where I pick one and stick to it for good. How nice would that be? No damage, no outrageous amounts of money spent.. But that's not who I am. I don't just make decisions and stick to them. No, I am the most indecisive person, and that's just it. And it's awful because I am never satisfied with my decisions. I always wonder "what if I chose the other option?" Definitely gotta do something about that.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Flowy Shirt

Just trying out a new boho/hippie-like style here. This shirt is nice because it's very flowy, it lets you breathe free. It's a great outfit to wear on a Monday, after a weekend full of indulging into a lot of tasty foods.

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Suburban Exposure

Living in the city is amazing. However, every once in a while, I would have those moments when I am 'craving' some suburban exposure. For those moments, I have two perfect solutions - one, going to visit my parents in the Philadelphia suburbs, and two, going to visit my friends in Lancaster, PA. 

My favorite part about both is that I can completely relax and let my mind clear. I can put on a sweatshirt and walk around in it all day without caring too much. These are my true times to relax, let go, recharge, and then go back to the busy city life. 

This weekend, I was in Lancaster visiting my friends. My favorite thing to do here is to walk around Lancaster City on Sunday mornings, stopping by numerous cafes and trying their breakfasts, coffees, pastries, etc. This Sunday I did exactly what I said above - I put on a comfy sweatshirt and have not taken it off all days. What can I do - this is my idea of a relaxing weekend.